Beloved Marriage in High Society

Yan Sui rubbed Meng's hair, raised his hand to look at his watch, and finally let go of the man, "go, I'll send you in."

"Well," Meng Ying answered, then looked at Yan Sui's side face, and then kissed again, then let go.

The class that Meng Zhen is going to now is the class of the Chinese teacher who has made up for most of his summer vacation. She is relatively clear about Meng's situation and knows that Yan's family will never allow anyone to bully him in school. Even if something happens, she will contact Yan Sui in time.

And the class she took was all top students. By this time of the third year of senior high school, there were no students who were too bored to provoke anyone.

Yan Sui didn't always send Meng Yu to the door of the class. They met Wang Qiuyu, a Chinese teacher who came downstairs to pick up people. He handed the person to her, and Yan Sui came back.

Meng Yi looks at Yan Sui's figure disappear, he follows Wang Qiuyu up the building.

His eyes swept away a lot of people like him in school uniform, but most of his eyes only fell on their clothes before their faces. He came to school to study, and what attitude they had towards him was not important.

From 7:00 a.m. to 7:10 a.m., this period is the most crowded time in the school. Most of the students come to school at this time point. Yan Sui and Meng Yi walk all the way from the school gate, and many curious eyes fall on them.

Yan Sui, Gao dajunlang and Meng Fu are exquisite and beautiful. They walk together to look good. Naturally, many students gossip. When Meng Bi wears their school uniform, many people also discuss about what class Meng fan is and what relationship Yan Sui has with him.

However, this is the best middle school in Haicheng. There are many children from wealthy families. Students have different horizons. Curiosity is curiosity. But they almost forget it when they turn around. It will not cause any trouble to Meng Fu.

Meng Yu's schoolbag is very big and heavy. She has brought all the textbooks he needs. Wang Qiuyu takes him to the office first. Haosheng tells him again. When the bell rings, she takes her to class two of senior three.

"Students, be quiet," Wang Qiuyu, who is in her forties and has rich teaching experience, is also very approachable. As soon as she stands on the podium, the buzzing sound of reading soon subsides.

She chuckled and then continued, "let me introduce you to my new classmate, Meng Yi. He came a few days late because of his illness. Everyone applauded."

The sound of "Pa Pa Pa Pa Pa" was not loud, but it did not show any impatience and exclusion. It just fell on the appearance of Meng Bi, which was quite amazing. They met one or two students who were in class or transferred every year since they started their studies. Both men and women had them, and there were also some who were good-looking or not. But it was difficult to be so selective as Meng Yi yes.

In Wang Qiuyu's expectant eyes, Meng Yi also stepped onto the platform, "Hello, I'm Meng Yi."

After that, he came down, and the self introduction was horribly simple.

Wang Qiuyu has contacted Meng Yu and knows that he has little words. He nods gently and counts him to have passed. After the students clapped their hands, Wang Qiuyu raised his hand again, and the hum of reading rose again.

Meng Bi has grown two centimeters recently, one meter or seven meters tall. He is not very tall or short. He is arranged to be next to the last row by the window. There is no need for people there to move their positions. At the beginning of school, Wang Qiuyu arranged it.

Meng's deskmate came out, Meng she went in, Wang Qiuyu continued to walk in the class, although there was attention to him, but also did not show too obvious.

Meng Xuan put out the books and papers in his schoolbag, put the schoolbag into the drawer, took out a Chinese book at random, and then looked at it carefully. His deskmate at the side of his body finally looked sideways. He took a look at Meng Bi, a little stunned, and then moved his eyes back.

Meng Zhen has never been in the habit of chatting up with others. Even now, he has no such consciousness. He doesn't greet anyone. He is very serious in reading books. He wants to know him at the front and back tables. Seeing his serious appearance, he doesn't mean to disturb him.

After class, Meng looked out of the window at a small pool and an old tree. After ten minutes of staring at the bell, he consciously turned his eyes, or read a book or look at the blackboard. The morning was over.

People who pay attention to him from time to time around him feel that this beautiful new classmate is so cold that they don't know how to talk to him. They are a little bit short tempered. Meng Shen doesn't take the initiative to open his mouth, and they won't speak any more.

In fact, Meng Ying didn't mean to do this, but he was mostly like this when he was at school. In his eyes, only textbooks and blackboard were in his eyes. For him, there was only the difference between fighting and not fighting with his classmates.

When he is too focused on one thing, he can hardly hear someone talking to him. This is what Yan Sui has experienced.

At noon, he took out a lunch box from his schoolbag, then got up and went to the teaching building to find a remote corner. He began to eat. Mrs. Wang was very rich in meat, vegetables, vegetables and bone soup with herbs. After eating, he took a walk and came back to the classroom. He took out paper and pen, wrote and calculated, and a lunch break was over.There are four classes in the morning and four classes in the afternoon. We arrive at school at seven o'clock in the morning, and we can finish school at six o'clock in the afternoon. It is not easy for a full day of courses to persist for a year. There is still a lot of homework to go home. Today, Meng Fu received four papers. Although he didn't require all of them to be finished, it took a lot of time to do half of each 。

The reason why Meng Yi plans to re read is because he wants to go to university, to be under his teacher's door again, to have his own laboratory and to continue the experiments he has not completed in his last life. But now he is spending his time on what he has learned or will never learn. He suddenly hesitates about whether this decision is right or not.

"Hello, my name is Xiao Mu." Xiao Mu, Meng's deskmate, endured for a day. Finally, when he was about to leave school, he opened his mouth and said something to Meng. His eyes were quite clear, but he did not hide the special features in his eyes.

At this stage of high school, whether it is precocious or late maturing, most people basically have a clear idea of their sexuality, which is the case with Xiao Mu. When he saw Meng Yu at the school gate, he felt excited, and he felt that Meng she and he were the same kind of people.

If they had been born a few decades earlier, he might have chosen to restrain his heart. After all, he did not want to be an alien. But now that the same-sex marriage law has been passed, the concept of the people has basically changed. If he wants to pursue Meng Yu, it is as normal as he wants to chase a girl.

However, Meng Yu was a little cold. Since he came to this classroom, he had never seen anyone, including him as a table mate. Now, Meng Fu has to pack up his things and leave, so he can't help it.

Meng Wen Yan continued to pick up his schoolbag, carried it on his body, and looked at Xiao Mu's eyes. He made sure that he was not looking for him to fight. He nodded gently, "hello."

With that, he said, "goodbye."

Then, with a slight leap, he jumped onto the table, turned over and out of position. He didn't need Xiao Mu to give in. His skill was quite beautiful.

Before many students responded, he strode out of the class and went down the stairs quickly. He knew that Yan Sui would come to meet him.

Out of the school gate, he saw Yan Sui leaning on the side of the bus door with a good-looking eye. Meng Yi reached out and raised his hand, and his pace was a little faster.

Yan Sui sees Meng Bi and stands up straight, waiting for Meng to approach quickly.

Meng Zhen stops half a step ahead of Yan Sui, and it's no different from throwing himself in his arms when he gets closer. He looks at Yan Sui and his eyes are gradually bent. He doesn't think about Yan Sui during class, but he thinks about him as soon as class is over. Seeing people now makes him think more.

"Yan Sui, I miss you."

Meng's voice is not high. In front of the noisy school gate, he is even flustered, which does not affect Yan Sui's hearing.

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Yan Sui stretched out his hand and gently hugged people. He whispered, "I miss you too. Let's go home."

Meng Yi nods, Yan Sui opens the door, and he sits in first. Yan Sui sits up. Before the door is closed, he is hugged by Meng Biao. His thoughts are not mixed with any water, and his attachment is not hidden. He can hold and hug if he wants, and he will be intimate if he wants to be intimate.

Yan Sui continues to close the door and embraces people. The smile on the corner of his mouth intensifies again. To tell the truth, he is not only reluctant to let Meng Fu go to school, but also worried. But now he is so clinging to Meng Bo, those worries have disappeared for the time being.

"Is there much homework today?" Yan Sui asked and stroked Meng's back.

"It's OK," Meng Yi is not afraid of too much homework. He suddenly feels that time is a little urgent. He doesn't know whether to spend his time on the things he has already learned. He rubs Yan Sui's cheek and whispers, "in the evening, I have something to discuss with you."

Yan Sui can't think of what Meng is, but seeing that it's already evening, he is not in a hurry.

So he held Meng Bi in his arms. He carried Meng Fu all the way back to his old house. When the car stopped, he let people go. It's rare that Meng Ying didn't fall asleep this time. His eyes blinked and blinked, which was quite spiritual.

After a sumptuous dinner and a short walk, they went to the study together. Yan Sui dealt with his affairs. Meng Yi did his homework first. After all, he was still a student at the moment, and finishing his homework was the first priority.

It's nearly eleven o'clock. Meng Yi yawns and finally finishes his homework. Yan Sui doesn't know when he has been standing behind him. He slowly lowers his body and whispers in Meng's ear, "tired?"

Meng Yi gently "um" a, and then Yan Sui on the side of a step, will he pick up, "we go back to sleep."

Meng Bi glanced at the papers that he had not packed up, and seemed hesitant.

"No problem. I'll clean it up for you tomorrow morning." Yan Sui said, gently kissing Meng Yan's eyebrows.

Meng Yi nodded, put his arm around Yan Sui's neck, and then pressed it on his cheek. With sleepiness and smile in his eyes, he squinted slightly. Yan Sui glanced, and his larynx rolled involuntarily.

At the beginning, Meng Xuan still remembered what he wanted to discuss with Yan Sui, but in the process of taking a bath, he went to sleep. When he woke up in the morning, he ran and walked his dog. When he got on the car, he remembered that it was obviously not a place to talk. When Yan Sui asked him again, he shook his head."We'll say it over the weekend."

Yan Sui hears speech to take Meng Bi to the bosom, and slant head kisses his forehead hair, "good."

This time, two people said goodbye at the school gate. Yan Sui went to the company and Meng Fu went to the school. The days of school were not much different for Meng. The teacher of Keren should have been explained by Wang Qiuyu. After five days, Meng Shen was not asked.

The communication between him and his table mate Xiao Mu was still on the first day of "Hello, goodbye". All the students around him were used to Meng's reticence. Although there was no deliberate rejection, there was almost no one who took the initiative to talk to him.

As soon as the bell rang after class on Friday afternoon, Meng Xuan quickly picked up his things. Xiao Mu quickly stood up and said, "Meng Yi, there will be basketball blue of our department in a moment. I will also participate in it. Come to see it."

Meng Bi Wen Yan's eyes swept to Xiao Mu and thought for a while that he seemed to remember who he was talking to. He gently shook his head, "I still have something to do."

Xiao Mu didn't give up when he heard the speech, "it's your brother who comes to pick you up every day. Tell him, I'll take you home."

"No, I can't," Meng Yi answered two questions at once. He put on his schoolbag and looked at Xiao Mu. Obviously, he wanted him to make way for him. At this time, the girl at Meng's front desk also turned around.

"Meng Yi, your brother is so handsome."

Girls are more mature than boys, and the social elites are more attractive to them. Yan Sui obviously belongs to this category, and may also be the "tyrannical president" type. These days, he picks up Meng Fu at the school gate every day, and many people in the class have noticed.

However, Meng Xuan does not like to talk. She just wants to inquire about something and can't find a chance to open her mouth. At present, Xiao Mu finally leads the topic. Wang Yueyue at Meng's front table can't help but put in a sentence. However, there is nothing to hide about the florid look on her face.

"He's not my brother," Meng emphasized again. He stepped forward, and the sudden outburst of anger in his eyes made Xiao Mu stunned. Then he was hit by Meng on the shoulder and turned to his side.

Although Yan Sui of his family is very handsome, he is still uncomfortable from other people's opinions. He is not polite to those who stand in his way.

When he got to the school gate, Meng Zhen's steps suddenly stopped. He saw Yan Sui, and then looked around him. Only then did he realize that many different eyes fell on Yan Sui, and his Yan Sui had been seen for so many days in vain.

Meng Yi goes to Yan Sui and doesn't say anything. He opens the door and asks Yan Sui to sit in first.

Yan Sui picked up his eyebrows and didn't know why, but he didn't refuse Meng. He got on the bus and pulled people up.

Meng Yan was not tired of people when he got on the bus as usual. Instead, he looked at Yan Sui and looked around him.

"What's the matter?" Yan Sui has some doubts. Meng Yi doesn't look like he is angry with him, but somehow he is a little uncomfortable. When he sent him to school this morning, Meng fan and he were still OK. It should not be his problem, "what did someone in the class say? Or what? "

Meng did not answer, he continued to look at Yan Sui, and then moved to Yan Sui's side, "you don't wait outside the car, you wait in the car, I know our car."

Yan Sui smell speech look slightly a meal, have not had time to think about what, Meng Bi then went on mumbling.

"I'm not happy that you've been watched by so many people."

He said stretched out his arm around Yan Sui's neck and stressed it carefully, "you are mine."

On the first day of school, Wang Qiuyu and Meng Yu stressed that she should not tell others about his marriage. Her original intention was also good. She did not want other people to cast different eyes on Meng. Meng agreed, so just now he was not happy, he did not say.

Otherwise, he would like to tell them that Yan Sui is not his brother. He is his lover and married lover.

When Yan Sui hears the speech, his eyes overflow with a little smile, and then he suddenly sees Meng Zhen like this I'm jealous.

Yan Sui took Meng Bi to his arms, held up his chin, and kissed him on his lips. With a smile in his eyes, he affirmed, "I am yours."

Meng Yi and Yan Sui looked at each other, and their cheeks turned red. Then he was healed like "um".

He came up to rub Yan Sui's cheek, then continued to hold Yan Sui, and for a while, he suddenly put his head forward, "Zhao Bing, you didn't see anything, did you?"

Did not see him jealous, did not see Yan Sui kiss him, did not see him rub people

Zhao Bing's face has been stiff for several decades, and he can't help but twist it. For a long time, he said "um" against his heart.

Meng Yi nodded with satisfaction and looked back at the sight of Yan Sui. He whispered, "Zhao Bing drives very seriously and can't see us."

Zhao Bing not only has a stiff face, but also has a stiff body. Although he drives seriously, he doesn't even have time to look at the rearview mirror, let alone hear nothing.

Hearing the speech, Yan Sui rubbed Meng's cheek and looked up at the rearview mirror. Zhao Bing's back was cold. Now he didn't dare to look in the rearview mirror. If he could, he would like to put an earphone in his ear.Meng Zhen felt at ease, so he did not worry about Zhao Bing any more. In fact, his jealousy did not go down. He did not feel enough to hold Yan Sui in his hands. He put his hands close to people's faces and rubbed them, which made Yan Sui's mind wander.

This week, Meng Fu studied hard. He was considerate and only slept with people when he reached the point. This suddenly transited from lingering at night to being unable to eat. In fact, he was quite uncomfortable. Now, being rubbed by Meng she, he could not suppress his anger.

When the car stops and the door opens, rhubarb's head comes up. Meng Yi finally lets go of Yan Sui and turns to embrace rhubarb.

"Dahuang darling, I went home with Yan Sui."

"Wang..." Rhubarb responded, and then stretched out his tongue to Meng Yan to lick all kinds of hot licks, mainly in the neck, which is a particularly sensitive place. Meng Bi laughed, and his body gradually tilted to one side. Yan Sui held him in his arms and pushed rhubarb out again.

"Get off first."

Meng Yi nodded and got out of the car. Then rhubarb got up again and got tired of his master.

Yan Sui has the impulse to hold Meng Yi up and go. He doesn't kiss a relative well, but a pet takes the lead.

Zhao Bing continues to drive the car into the garage. He thinks he should have lost weight recently. He has to be fed a meal of dog food every morning and evening. Can he not be thin.

Back home, Yan Sui first took Meng Yi to the stairs, "we put things, wash hands and then come down."

Wang Ma nodded, and then went on to ask the servant to set the meal.

Meng Yi took off his school uniform when he got to his room. There was PE class this afternoon. He was sweating a little. He had a fight with rhubarb just now. His nose is very smart, so he dislikes himself first.

"You eat first, and I'll come down in a shower."

Meng Xuan said to Yan Sui and ran to the bathroom with a bath towel. His door closed quickly, and Yan Sui didn't have time to move.

Twenty minutes later, the door of Meng Yan opened and was caught by Yan Sui, who was guarding the door.

"Why are you still there? You have to... "

Meng Xuan's words did not finish, he was Yansui kiss, two people kiss while retreating to the bedside, although Meng Yan was raided for a while, but he has been used to Yan Sui's embrace and kiss, did not frighten, do not want to refuse.

He bent his eyes slightly and began to kiss back enthusiastically, but Yan Sui, who had intended to quench his thirst, could not just try it.

After a kiss, the two men are already lying on the bed. Yan Sui traps Meng Xuan under his body. Meng Yan is panting and his chest is fluctuating. He whispers, "are you hungry?"

Yan Sui with two points of restraint voice, pleasant to hear and intoxicated, mengyan pondered and shook his head, "Wang Ma also prepared snacks for me."

He ate it during his PE class. In fact, it was OK. He lifted up a little bit and kissed Yan Sui's lips, "what about you?"

Yan Sui smelled a little smile on his face. He stuck to Meng's lips and pressed people back to the bed. "I'm hungry, so you have to be responsible for feeding me."

Meng Zhen was not unheard of being called this way, but he said it from Yan Sui's mouth, and his heart suddenly quickened a little. He didn't answer this, but he gently put out the tip of his tongue and took the initiative to kiss Yan Sui, which showed his intention more than any response.

The bath towel tied to his waist drew gently and threw it aside. However, Yan Sui took off his clothes. He seemed more anxious. Meng Yi pursed his lips and laughed, and rubbed people with his feet from time to time. He couldn't remember the scene when he begged for mercy.

As soon as Yan Sui reaches out his hand, he grabs Meng's troublemaker. He kisses him on his lips and starts kissing on the instep of his feet. Gradually, Meng Fu doesn't show much shyness. He doesn't bow down to kiss Yan Sui's hair, but seems to be playing.

Both of them were familiar with each other's bodies, and they were in a state soon.

A week later, Meng's body, which was not suitable for him, found the match again. Soon, both of them were sweating. Yan Sui kisses the sweat from Meng's forehead. His gentle kiss is incomparable, but his other actions are not.

Of course, it can't be said to be rude or barbaric. It should be sexy, belonging to men's sexiness.

Meng Zhen is not an easy man to beg for mercy. He takes Yan Sui's shoulder and his eyes are slightly shaken by * *'s impact. However, he soon prints Yan Sui's appearance into his eyes, "Yan Sui, you are mine..."

The longer we stay together, the more distinct the possessive desire that can't be coveted by others. At this time, Meng Yi still stood up to what Yan Sui was seen by so many peers.

"I'm yours," Yan Sui liked Meng's jealous appearance very much. He bit Meng's earlobe gently, and for a moment, he held the man tightly in his arms. "Meng Bi, I love you."

Meng's mind was shocked to some extent, and it took a long time to come back to him, "what did you say, say it again."

"I love you."

Meng Wen Yan narrowed his eyes, "I guess so."

He said cherry colored lips and came up again, "Yan Sui, I love you too. I love you very much."Yan Sui doesn't speak any more. He bows his head and kisses his relatives. His body is temporarily relieved, but his mind is more satisfied.

The two hugged each other for a while. Yan Sui picked up the man and went to the bathroom. It was too long for him to take people back to the room. Wang Ma and Xiao Bo should have guessed the reason why they didn't come down for such a long time.

Meng Yan Sui still grinds in the bathroom for a while, but when he comes out, Meng Yi is still there. He changes his clothes and lies on the bed playing with his mobile phone.

"Come on, let's have something to eat first, and then come back to play."

"Good," Meng said, climbing down from the bed. He got used to his slightly sour legs and then handed it to Yan Sui.

Yan Sui side head whispers, "come back, I'll give you rub."

Meng Yi nodded, "good."

He should quickly kiss Yan Sui's side face again, which is a reward for him.

Two people are upstairs for an hour and a half, but not only Xiao Bo and Wang Ma are waiting, but also Yan Manjia and Zhen Han.

"I have something to do when I go back to the city, and I'll come back for a meal..."

Yan Manjia said that she couldn't help crying and laughing, but she didn't expect to wait for this to eat.

Zhen Han doesn't care much. In fact, he didn't come long ago. It was a coincidence that he ran into Yan Manjia. However, he had something to ask Yan Manjia, so he stayed.

But he looked at Yan Sui's eyes with discontent. He was so impatient with the man who had been studying hard for a week. It's not very good. How can we make people eat first.

"Auntie, cousin," Meng Yi called, and sat down to wait for dinner. The food that had been served was sent back to the kitchen to keep warm.

Yan Sui sits down without changing his face and raises his hand. Wang Ma and others immediately go to bring food.

"When my aunt and Zhen Han come, they will eat first and don't have to wait for us."

Zhen Han continues to be surprised by Yan Sui's bottom line, which shows that they will often encounter the current situation in the future. The former ascetic cousin has become a libido.

The Yan family doesn't have the habit of eating and sleeping, but they don't even put things on the table. Even talking is about eating. Yan Manjia and Zhen Han, who were not hungry, had to wait for hunger. What's more, Yan Sui and Meng Yan, who had been exercising for a while, had to wait for hunger.

Wang Ma and Xiao Bo also eat together. A table for six people is more lively than usual.

After eating, they did not sit down on the sofa. Wang Ma Xiao Bo packed up and the other four went for a walk on the lawn.

After going for a while, Zhen Han finally broke the silence, "I heard that Su Siyu was released on bail."

Of course, it was his unprincipled father who spoiled him. It is said that old master Su was still angry and went to the hospital, but in his opinion, it may not be as serious as the rumor outside.

"No problem," Yan Sui obviously knew the news earlier than Zhen Han. He had a plan in mind. Zhen Han looked at him and didn't say it again.

"Suisui's actions are more and more reassuring," Yan man said, sighing in her eyes. Neither she nor Yan Yu had fulfilled the expectations of her parents. Instead, Yan Sui was more and more in line with his father's standard of being the head of the Yan family. He became more and more the head of the family.

What she said was not only about the business activities of Meng family and Su family recently, but also about his break with he wan.

"I'm not going. I have a sister lying down. I'll go first. I'll come back next Saturday."

Yan Manjia said, "don't be too tired to study."

"Well, aunts also pay attention to their health," Meng Ying replied, stopping with Yan Sui, and Zhen Han was the same. They gave Yan Manjia a piece of money, and then went back to the living room.

Zhen Han sat down, her face no longer covered up, "it seems She really doesn't know

If he didn't want to ask again.

Yan Sui takes Meng Xuan and sits down together. Then he returns to Zhen Han's words, "even if you know, don't be impulsive."

Yan Sui emphasizes that "impulse can lead to trouble."

Zhen Han nodded and looked at Meng Xuan's eyes. The seriousness on his face scattered a little, "I know."

Although he didn't follow Meng's orders, he couldn't do anything to pull back his legs. However, he still hated Yan Manjia for his lack of iron and steel. He was not bad in all aspects. He had to hang himself in a crooked neck tree.

"I won't hide anything from you, you I'm still looking at my aunt. "

Yan Sui's words are up to now, but Zhen Han understands. He does not drag Yan Sui's hind legs, but does not mean that Yan Manjia will not.

Although she has always thought that she is very smart, but the really smart woman to her age, not to say family happiness, but also should have their own career, she ran after men for half a life, finally nothing.

Zhen Han's eyes across some dark, nodded, he is not here when the light bulb, he rose to say goodbye to leave.

During this week, Meng Zhen only occasionally listens to the progress of things in her study. At present, when listening to his conversation with Zhen Han, she is also confused. She doesn't know what to say to comfort them. Moreover, Yan Sui and Zhen Han are not people who need to be comforted by others.Yan Sui rubbed Meng's hair, "we go back to the room."

"Good," Meng Yi nodded. Although he still had homework to do, he didn't plan to do it tonight.

Yan Sui's mood was not affected by the topic just now. After returning to his room, he agreed with Meng Zhen before. Meng played with his mobile phone and rubbed his legs.

Meng played for a while and put the mobile phone aside. He looked at Yan Sui, and finally opened his mouth.

"Yan Sui, I have something to tell you."

Yan Sui gently nodded and continued to knead his legs. When he picked up people on Monday, Meng Xuan said that he had something to discuss with him. Later, he changed to the weekend, and now he should also talk about it.

However, Meng Xuan was silent for a moment. He was really puzzled why Su Siyu spoke so easily. He was still hesitating from his decision to now. He was afraid that Yan Sui would treat him as a monster.

His eyes slowly lowered and fell on Yan Sui's hand. He took his hand, then sat up and changed his posture. He lay down directly in Yan Sui's arms, so that he opened his mouth again.

"I'm the same as Susie."

After Meng Xuan opened his mouth, he didn't dare to look at Yan Sui, but he still held people tightly. He was sure that Yan Sui didn't push him away. He continued, "it's just I didn't want to be a "trash."