124 - Dating My Wife, Not My Girlfriend (4) (feat. Heena)
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Sarang was born.
The crystallization of Yeonho and my love.
The lovely child I had carried for ten months was now in my arms, drinking the formula I was feeding her, unable to open her eyes properly.
Every single moment was a continuous stream of emotions.
Becoming a mother was an experience that changed my life and my values more than I ever imagined.
To me, the most beloved and precious person was undoubtedly Yeonho, but Sarang also became equally significant.My determination to do anything for Yeonho now included Sarang.
"Okay, I'll be back after a quick stop at the district office. Take care and call me if anything happens."
"Yes, don't worry. I'll wait quietly with Sarang."
"Sarang, Daddy will be back soon~ See you later!"
And as I watched Yeonho's back naturally calling himself "Daddy" as he left, my heart was filled with happiness rather than anxiety.
Before Sarang was born, I couldn't even imagine what made me so anxious and troubled.
Our daughter's existence felt like a clear milestone in our lives.
Looking at our tiny and beautiful Sarang, nothing seemed scary.
"Ha ha, our Sarang, is the food delicious~?"
At the postpartum care center provided by our parents' consideration, I received a lot of care and could focus solely on Sarang. Of course, Yeonho stayed by my side. It felt a bit silly, but somehow it felt like we were newlyweds.
I was in a spacious room taking care of Sarang while waiting, and Yeonho went out to handle various benefits and paperwork. As soon as he finished his tasks, he would come straight back to me, my husband and Sarang's father.
Thinking about these things made me smile. I was incredibly happy even with such small things.
The love that couldn't be fully realized in our past life was now firmly in my grasp at this moment, together with Sarang.
Living at the postpartum care center, taking care of Sarang and having Yeonho by my side was truly wonderful. I could recover physically, and Yeonho's attentive care also gave me mental stability.
It felt like what it would be when we eventually had our own nest.
And now, the day when Yeonho, who had worked so hard, would enter Seoyeon University was approaching. No matter how many times I praised him, it wasn't enough.
It wasn't just the studying; despite how much I had pestered him from the side, he overcame all those distractions and proudly passed the entrance exam to Seoyeon University. This time, it wasn't luck but his own ability.
So, I was extremely happy, but I couldn't help but worry.
"If a younger girl in your class approaches you, don't be too nice to her just because she's cute. Our profile picture is our family photo, right?"
Since Yeonho liked cute things so much, I worried he might be too kind to younger girls.
"And you know about group dates and blind dates, right?"
I worried he might be curious and try them, which are often considered the highlight of college life.
-Squeeze
"Ouch! Yes, I know! I won't go, I promise! My hand, my hand hurts, Heena!"
"Good. Next... If any girls tell you to listen to them because they're seniors and ask you to drink with them, never go. And also─"
Although I trusted Yeonho, I couldn't help but feel a bit uneasy. It was a different kind of anxiety from when I was heavily pregnant, burning in my chest.
"It's fortunate that there aren't many girls in your department, but you still can't let your guard down. Especially, don't smile kindly at them!"
"That's my trademark..."
"What if someone falls for you!"
"No, that won't happen, and even if it does, I'm not interested at all. I have you and Sarang, so why would other girls matter? You know my heart, right?"
Yeonho didn't know himself well enough. He didn't realize how handsome he looked when he smiled kindly, how much it drew attention.
His smiling eyes still made my heart skip a beat. He really had no sense of caution.
"But still..."
"Hey, don't you know my heart? Here, open your mouth!"
-Smooch
"Chu... Ah, I know but..."
And then he tried to smooth things over with skinship. I liked it. I wished he would do more!
"I'm going to focus on my grades and come back right away to take care of Sarang, so I won't have time for that. Don't worry."
I was grateful for his words. Although he really shouldn't do that. College life was too precious to focus solely on studying, even more so than high school.
Especially considering how much Yeonho had struggled.
I couldn't allow him to play around with other girls, but I wanted him to enjoy various gatherings and time with his peers.
"Yes... but don't overdo it. You can go to drinking parties or gatherings. Those experiences will be helpful later. Just make sure to contact me when you go."
Because of me and Sarang, it would be hard for him to have an ordinary college life, but I hoped he could enjoy it as much as possible.
I said that to Yeonho.
Several times a day, I woke up to Sarang's crying, soothed her, and fed her. It would be a lie to say I wasn't tired, but for our Sarang, I didn't feel it was difficult.
I was driven by the mission to quickly soothe and feed her. Seeing Sarang fall back asleep filled my heart with overwhelming affection.
Usually, Yeonho woke up with me or took turns taking care of Sarang, but today was his entrance ceremony. I had told him not to get up even if he woke up.
Maybe because of my words, when I returned to bed after putting Sarang back to sleep, Yeonho was sleeping soundly like Sarang.
Watching Yeonho sleep was one of my pleasures.
How could he be so cute and handsome? His eyes, nose, mouth—all of him was so lovable. Looking at this, Sarang certainly resembled Yeonho. Both were equally lovely.
-Smooch
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I gently kissed his lips and went to bed.
When I opened my eyes again, Yeonho was already getting ready to leave. He must have woken up early with excitement for college. Recently, he hadn't been sleeping deeply because of taking care of Sarang.
I helped him get ready while looking after Sarang, who woke up around the same time as me.
"Ah, Dad! It's my turn to feed Sarang this morning!"
"Is it wrong for Grandpa to feed his granddaughter before going to work?"
"Dad, you did it yesterday too! Let me do it!"
In the meantime, I heard Dad and my brother arguing in the kitchen over feeding Sarang. It was an embarrassing sight to show others, but I had to understand since it was all out of love for Sarang.
"Be careful driving... Sarang~ say 'Daddy, come back safely,' okay?"
I told Yeonho once more not to skip gatherings and saw him off.
-Smooch!
Yeonho left for school after giving me a bright smile and a kiss. I stared blankly at the empty space for a moment, then snapped out of it and turned around.
It was time to feed Sarang. In the future, it would be natural for Yeonho and me to be apart for long periods, so I couldn't be like this already.
But.
Even though I knew that.
I still felt lonely without Yeonho.
Sarang, don't you feel the same?
Around 5 o'clock, as expected, Yeonho contacted me. He was going to have a drink with his peers. To be honest, I was almost 100% sure this would happen.
I had briefly seen his peer group chat, and it was very active. Knowing Yeonho's personality, I figured he would quickly become friends with them and go out to eat or drink.
Everything happened as expected, so I was okay with it.
Yes. I was okay.
"Daughter~ Why are you so upset?"
"Me? I'm not upset."
"Your face is all scrunched up... Is your husband coming home late today?"
"...Yes."
I could understand Yeonho having a drink with his peers. He had contacted me, after all.
But still.
"What if Yeonho gets too close with other girls?"
"With his personality, isn't it harder for him not to get close?"
"That's what I mean! Yeonho is also the problem! He always smiles so brightly at everyone!"
"You said his smile is pretty."
"It should only be pretty for me, but he smiles beautifully at others too!"
"Oh, well, then it's your husband's fault."
"Can't he even smile as he wants?"
"Oppa, give me Sarang."
"Ah, bringing Sarang into this is too unfair! I admit I'm wrong! I'll keep my mouth shut, okay?!"
Jealousy and frustration over something that hadn't even happened yet.
Eventually, I couldn't stand it. He said he would come home soon, but he was later than expected.
I didn't want to interfere with Yeonho's college life or his social relationships. I didn't want to leave home and Sarang behind.
But this was Yeonho's fault.
While Sarang slept, I asked my mom to look after her if she woke up. I spent two hours getting ready.
I put on full makeup, something I hadn't done since I got pregnant. I dressed nicely and headed to the chicken place Yeonho had mentioned. It was a place I had been to before, so I didn't get lost.
As I arrived, the freshmen who were about to end their drinking session caught my eye.
Among them, I immediately saw my husband.
Yeonho's face was clearly visible as he happily talked with a cute girl with short hair.
As soon as I saw that, I walked towards them without hesitation. Some of them noticed me and started looking my way, but I didn't care. I approached Yeonho and opened my mouth.
"Hello."
I looked around and communicated with my eyes to all the girls nearby.
They could be friendly, but they needed to understand clearly.
Yeonho was my husband.
"Uh... hello...?"
"Yes, hello."
"You're Yeonho oppa's wife, right?"
"Yes. I'm sorry for interrupting your gathering. I was passing by and thought I'd drop in since it seemed like it was ending."
"Oh~ you were just passing by..."
I had a brief conversation with the girl who seemed particularly close to Yeonho. She didn't seem to have romantic interest in him, but she was the one I was most wary of.
Even though she knew I was his wife, she was still acting so close to him. So, I smiled even brighter. As a warning.
Men and women can be friends, but there's no need to get too close.
"Please take good care of my husband in the future. Is it okay if I take Yeonho now?"
"Oh, yes..."
"Then, we'll be going... Honey, let's go."
I left the place after firmly establishing my presence among Yeonho's peers.
I decided I needed to say something to Yeonho, who had been smiling carelessly despite all my warnings.
"You said you'd only be at the chicken place, so nothing should have happened... But why did you dress up so nicely to come here?"
"Do I look pretty?"
"You're the prettiest in the world. You're always pretty, but today, you're unbelievably beautiful."
Since he said something sweet, I'll let it go for now.
I'll deal with him in bed later.
"By the way, who was that girl next to you earlier?"
"Girl? Oh, Yujin?"
As we were about to go to bed, I started interrogating him. This needed to be cleared up.
As soon as I heard his first words, my anger started to rise.
Yujin? Did he just call her Yujin? Being that close with another girl?
"There are so many guys, how did you get close to a girl again?"
"She's really sociable. And she likes games..."
Yeah, liking games would make them closer? In the future too?
"Should I keep some distance from her...? We don't have to be that close, right?"
"When did I say that? I told you to get along well with your classmates."
I'm not that petty.
"Then, just to build camaraderie, maybe a little gaming..."
"That sounds fun~ Playing games with a cute girl? Listening to her call you 'oppa' and all? You like that kind of thing, don't you?"
But don't get too close.
You understand how I feel, right?
"I'm only trying to be friendly with her because we're classmates. You know I'm only for you, right? I love you, Heena. I love you more than anything in the world."
"Say it more."
-Smooch!
"Can I kiss you more first? Our Heena is so beautiful, I just want to kiss you."
"Okay, I'll let that slide."
"Thank you. I love you."
In the end, he whispered love to me all night long, so I decided to forgive him this time.
It's not his fault he's so charming, and girls get drawn to him.
Anyway, my dear only cares about me and Sarang.
While Yeonho's college life and my days with Sarang were going smoothly, one day, I reluctantly agreed to go on a date with Yeonho due to my mom's persistent urging.
I was always happy to go on a date with Yeonho, but I couldn't easily leave thinking about Sarang.
Especially recently, since Sarang had started smiling at us, like an angel, I didn't want to leave her side even more.
A while ago, we had gone crazy trying to capture Sarang's angelic smile on camera.
Still, I couldn't ignore my mom's thoughtful gesture, so I left home with Yeonho and pondered our destination.
"What should we do? We came out so suddenly that I can't think of anything."
"Well... Oh! There are a lot of cute baby clothes these days, let's go see those~ Like those baby animal pajamas!"
"Shall we? Then let's go to the mall we always go to. I hope they have baby clothes."
"Yes~"
Whatever we thought about, it always led back to Sarang. We couldn't get our lovely daughter, who was becoming more adorable each day, out of our minds.
We looked around at various items at the baby store. The one that caught our eye the most was a walker that helps the baby move on her own.
Just imagining Sarang moving around in it was unbearably cute. Although she was too young to use it yet.
While I was feeling disappointed inside, Yeonho smiled and spoke up.
"By the way, isn't this our first date in a long time? Last time you came to the bar, we went straight home."
"Yes... But we ended up coming to buy things for Sarang. Is there anywhere you want to go?"
"I always want to be by your side. You know I like anywhere you go."
"Hehe... Me too. I like anything as long as I'm with you."
Yes. Many days had passed since we met again, and now we were an undeniable couple with a child.
But my feelings hadn't changed at all.
I also liked anywhere as long as you were there. I liked doing anything with you.
As long as we were together, anything was fine.
"Then it's settled. Shopping for Sarang isn't not a date. Besides, I enjoy looking at things for Sarang more than looking at clothes for myself."
"Right? Right?! Me too! I don't care about what I use, but I always think over and over about what to buy for Sarang~"
With Sarang, the three of us together.
"You're really in full mom mode now, aren't you, Sarang's mom?"
"Yes, indeed, Sarang's dad!"
After that, while looking at pajamas, which was our main goal, I glared at Yeonho who loved red pandas too much.
I knew red pandas were cute and that Yeonho really liked them.
But loving red pandas more than me and Sarang? That’s not right, is it?
"Who do you love more, me and Sarang or the red panda?"
When I asked this, Yeonho, trying to joke, said the red panda, and we had a small spat. But I let it go after he kissed me and Sarang.
Then we bought Sarang's cat pajamas, and to match as a family, we went to buy Yeonho's cat pajamas too.
That's how we enjoyed our date.
We strolled around, bought food from street vendors, and occasionally did window shopping for things we needed in the future. The only difference from when we were high school students was that now, thoughts of Sarang filled those moments.
"Still~ when Sarang gets a bit older, we can take her with us to a café and study together~"
When we thought about our future plans, Sarang's presence was naturally considered.
"This is the last one. Eating more will be bad for your health!"
Wanting him to stay with us for a long, long time, I directly expressed my concern for his health.
More and more, we naturally accepted that we were a family of three.
While on our date, we randomly ended up in an adult shop, which turned out to be quite interesting and fun.
I had done my own research on erotic things, but even for me, there were so many tools I had never seen before.
Some were completely baffling, while others were more intuitive.
For example, there were those tools modeled after a man’s genitals.
Of course, none of those could compare to Yeonho’s. Nothing could make me happier than his.
If we had come here when we were living on our own, I thought we might have bought more things to try out.
But I couldn't allow Yeonho to take interest in those male masturbation tools.
"Well, it might be useful someday..."
"Why would you use that when you have me!"
Whenever he felt that way, he could use me. I would never lose to those things.
My body would feel much better!
We also looked at various tools, consumables like condoms, and sexy lingerie and cosplay outfits. Yeonho showed a lot of interest in the cosplay outfits.
Seeing him like that, I made up my mind. I would surprise him one day. To do that, I needed to know what he liked the most.
"A bunny girl? A rabbit cosplay?"
"Yes. What do you think? Can I use my card?"
A strong contender seemed to be the bunny girl costume that excited him so much. Honestly, just looking at it made me a little embarrassed, but if Yeonho liked it, I could wear it anytime.
"So, most of my friends don't throw them away. Um~ should I wear a school uniform next time?"
"Really?!"
"Now that we can wear anything... I'll try it on next time the house is empty."
He seemed to like the school uniform too, but since I had already shown him that look many times, I decided to keep it for regular use.
As we passed by the cosplay section, I saw Yeonho looking longingly at it, which strengthened my resolve.
Just wait. I'll definitely show you.
Next, we looked at the more serious tools for when we wanted to really torment each other.
Whips and paddles that looked like they would hurt a lot honestly scared me a bit. Even though I liked it when Yeonho teased me, I didn't like things that were too painful.
Fortunately, Yeonho seemed to feel the same way, quickly moving past anything that might cause too much pain.
Then, picking up handcuffs and a blindfold, he suggested them to me.
"Heena, how about these? This much should be fine, right?"
"Uh, maybe...?"
"Right? How about being blindfolded and tied up, unable to move, while I torment you?"
"......"
Just the thought gave me chills. I knew that Yeonho would make sure to torment me in a way that felt good rather than causing pain.
If it was his loving torment, I could endure it forever.
So, I nodded slightly. It felt a bit embarrassing to reveal my desires like that, but I was genuinely excited.
We quickly paid and left the shop, and while Yeonho was thinking about our next destination, I spoke up.
"I want to do it now."
"Now?"
"Yeah... is that okay?"
"I don't mind... do you want to try out what we bought?"
"Uh, yes..."
I pleaded to go to a motel. Having been teased on the subway, I couldn't wait any longer.
Besides, I wanted it, but I also noticed that Yeonho was subtly feeling the same way.
Yeonho didn't refuse my request, and we had a wonderful time at the motel.
As I had hoped, and as he had desired.
He bound me with handcuffs, leaving me unable to move, and blindfolded me so I couldn't see anything.
In such an embarrassing state, with my entire body exposed, he tormented me to his heart's content.
Recently, we had only had gentle s*x, and a part of me had been yearning for something like this.
To be played with as he pleased.
In these moments, I felt completely like I belonged to him. Although I enjoyed the gentle and delicate s*x too, maybe this was even better.
I wanted to be Yeonho's toy forever.
After spending a blissful time without worrying about anyone else, we talked and headed straight home.
The date had been fun, but I missed Sarang. Most of our conversation had been about her.
When we hurried back home, we were greeted by Sarang, who was being fed formula by my mom. Even while eating, our daughter smiled at us with her eyes, and she looked incredibly cute.
Just like us, it was understandable why the family was so smitten with Sarang.
Of course, our Sarang was the cutest in the world.
I couldn't wait for her to grow up.
To hold hands with Yeonho and me.
To stroll around the neighborhood together.
To revisit old memories with Sarang.