Chapter 120 - Heart Of Gold - Part【2】
"I-I.." I stutter my cunt throbbing as I turn my gaze away for I am unable to meet his voracious gaze. Phobos seizes my jaw and forces me to face him, he wants to see my feelings my emotions to what he has revealed to me. In two years he has never asked me to do this but it seems to be something he had craved all along.
"I did not ask this from you for I wanted to treat you with respect and you are inexperienced after all. I did not want to push you. But I cannot restrain myself anymore."
"What do you want?" I ask breathlessly, glancing down at his cock. I have wondered about how he tasted but I thought he did not want me to suck him down there for he said it only playfully before never serious, so what Zina told me was right. Males liked their cocks sucked.
"I want to fuck your mouth, Theia and I want you to swallow what I will feed you." He speaks his smutty truth as he inserts his thumb through my thick lips and I allow him to do as he pleases. Once his finger is inside my mouth I clamp my lips around his digit sucking him in as his breath hitches his nose flaring at my confidence.
"Like this?" I ask shyly peeking up at him from beneath my lashes.
"Yes just like this." He rasps extracting his thumb only to stab in deep and I hastily rub my legs against each other unable to protect my arousal from him creating friction to pleasure myself.
"I do not know if I will be good at it. Shall I ask one of the breeders to teach me?" I ask as soon as he removes his saliva-smeared thumb from my mouth.
"No." He growls not wishing for me to do that. "They have had numerous males, I do not want you to learn from them. I do not want you to go anywhere near them. I will tell you how I want it, I will guide you."
"Okay. If this is what you want I will do it for you, Phobos. As many times as you wish." His eyes somewhat widen at my words as though he is caught off guard by them as though he hadn't expected me to promptly agree. But I want to try it too, when I was a juvenile I would often overhear the others talking about blowjobs. I thought that it was offensive to have a cock in your mouth but with Phobos, I want to sample him. I want him to thrust into my mouth, to pleasure him and to photograph his face when he reaches rupture. Moreover, he always goes down on me and never falters to pleasure my cunt with his tongue and it is only fair I do the same for him.
"I will not hurt you in any way, I promise." He utters pushing a strand of my hair to rest behind my ear as he looks down at me lovingly whilst I give him a nod of agreement. If only this male understood I am not as innocent as he deems me to be. There are parts of me I have withheld from him away from the transparency of our mark, a few scenes I once acted out in the secrecy of my locked room. I would die out of embarrassment if he ever came to uncover them for what I have done is truly shameful.
When the other wolves my age spoke of these so-called blowjobs and sex I enacted them to get an understanding of what it would feel like. Once I even tried sucking on an...eggplant to see how a cock would fit in my mouth. But what Phobos possesses is much larger than anything I had imagined I do not know how I would take him down my throat.
"Will you not tell me what you have planned for our date?" He asks gathering back my attention as he places his lips upon my slender collarbone his grip on my thighs hardens as he sucks at the frail skin to leave his mark.
"We need not go out for it. We can do it here in the warmness of our cabin, I have already prepared everything we need for us to enjoy it."
My male boosts his right eyebrow at me in question, he does not understand the idea of having cute little dates at home he thinks it only makes sense to leave the cottage and when I told him eating in and cuddling up on the couch is also a form of a date and it baffled him.
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"I told you, Theia. Staying home is not something that will assist in clearing your mind. I-"
"Trust me? You will enjoy it." I mutter whilst I leap down the counter struggling through his bulky arms and bustle into our room. Opening one of my drawers I pull out an old CD player that I treasured back in Cronus's pack. I brought this over when we were preparing to return home from the lantern festival thinking it would help us to spend some intimate time together.
Heading back into the living room I set it over a small wooden table and twist the knob attempting to get it to work. It already possesses a few songs in it that I often listened to. "What is this? A radio?" He scrutinises it from behind my shoulders curiosity held deep in his voice.
"No, it is a CD player."
"And what shall we do with this? Listen to music?"
"Not really," I reply with a titter delighted with the soft melody that is played, I shall choose this song for today. Phobos frowns at the vagueness of my actions and his frown deepens as he listens to the tune, he does not seem to like it. But there is nothing I will do in return I must force this stubborn male to try new things for he constantly shies away from anything that reminds him of his juvenile years at the castle but I am still not as wild and uncivilised as him or his wolves I wish to reconnect my moon blessed with the other part of him.
"Tell me, my freesia." He is impatient indeed not all the time. I grip onto his biceps and steer him to stand in the middle of the living room right in between the fireplace and the couch. I eagerly walk around and occupy the place opposite the confused male.
Clearing my throat avoiding his bewildered yet anticipating gaze I clutch onto the sides of my skirt and bow respectfully to Phobos. "Yes. I would love to dance with you, Alpha Phobos." My male takes in a deep breath finally coming to terms with my idea for our date.
Growing up I had attended several balls where the Alphas of all the packs would attend, sometimes they would find their mates there or sometimes they would simply ask to dance with the unmated females attending out of respect. I had always wanted Phobos to court me on one of those balls but I knew that would never happen as he was not a part of my world anymore he resided in the wild far away from me.
Being the Alpha of Alphas Deimos had hosted and attended numerous balls himself both at his castle and my childhood home. I had wondered at times what if Phobos wasn't different from the rest what if he was just like us? Would that have meant that we would have had a normal prestigious life among the glamour and luxury? We would have had that lifestyle with me wearing expensive designer dresses and Phobos in his polished shoes and customized suits.
"I...do not know how to dance, my moonlight. I have forgotten how to." There is a mild gloom in his eyes that is exhibited to me. I have made him remember the life he once had, the life that seems to have faded away with each passing day.
"Your mind might have forgotten but I assure you that your body remembers," I mutter holding onto his wrist looping his left arm on my waist whilst I set my own on his shoulder. Entwining our fingers I snuggle closer to his warmth laying my head on his chest listening to the rhythms of his heart. "Just sway us, it is more than enough."
My moon blessed holds onto me tighter pressing me further into his chest as he hesitantly begins to step side to side swinging the both of us in harmony with the slow melody. He understands my feelings, my wish to at times return us to our old life. He sets his chin upon my head and I sense he is looking down at me. "You miss the life you had."
"Yes but not the life I had but the life we had."
"I do not understand."
"Do you not remember the balls we attended when we were young? There was this grand one hosted by your parents at the castle when you were eighteen and I was nine. I remember how I wanted to dance with you so much but papa had forbidden me to do so for I was not of age yet and you needed to dance with the juvenile females. I did not like it and was bound by friendly jealousy even at that time." I smile reminiscing on the sweet memories that I cherish.
I still remember how he was dressed that day in a fitting tuxedo his dark blonde hair slicked back neatly with onyx glossy shoes. He hadn't worn a tie or a bow and the first few buttons of his crisp white shirt was not fastened yet he was the centre of attention as Alpha Ares's firstborn male. Everyone wished to talk with him and the females were desperately hoping he would end being their male, he was the talk of the town even then.
"Yes, I remember. I noticed." He snickers.
"Noticed what?"
"My little Theia was getting a stern scolding from her father all because she was stubborn and wanted to dance with me. You were wearing an adorable little dress with frills, I cannot remember the colour."
"It was baby blue. I wanted to be a princess." I sigh embarrassed of my childhood days for Phobos was aware I was his female during those years and I humiliated myself in front of him on several occasions. I wonder what kind of thoughts occupied his mind during those times.
"I would have rather spent the entire evening with you. But I had to do my duties as the future King. They were all aware of which pack I would rule over so father had made sure I portrayed my dominance."
"You would have danced with me? Despite the age rules?" I inquire placing my chin upon his chest glancing up at him from beneath my lashes.
He caresses my cheekbone with his thumb with a loving smile on his face. "You know I am not the kind of male who follows rules. You were my female and I wanted to court you in a friendly way for after all my sunflower deemed that I was her best friend and not her mate."
"Then why did you ignore my presence?" I ask planting my feet on his to get closer in order to reach his height and he does not mind continuing to wander around the room with me standing on his feet.
"It would have caused unnecessary gossip. Despite our fathers being very close you and I still had a significant gap between our ages. They would have suspected something and would have suffocated you to get favour from me."
"I thought you were embarrassed to be friends with someone my age. But you were protecting me?"
"Embarrassed? I have never felt that emotion in my life before. And yes I was." This male has never been embarrassed of anything in his life? But then it makes sense he knows no shame and does as he pleases. No one would dare ridicule him for he would butcher them in mere seconds.
"And yet you danced with all those females." I playfully narrow my eyes up at him as though criticising him for his wrongdoings.
"It was what was expected of me and I had to even if it made me undeniably sick."
"You need not lie, you held many gorgeous females in your arms some who even possessed more beauty than I did. You should have been happy that all those females would have given themselves to you even if you were not their mate, being surrounded by wolves who sought your attention did not please you?"
"There is no female for me that could ever compare to your beauty. And not at all, it made me nauseous and also that night I was quite upset for I knew that the next year I would have to leave.. And I will admit I wished hopelessly that you were my age during the ball."